Here and Queer for the Holigays!

Here & Queer for the Holigays!

A beautiful image of Queer Chocolatier's Chocolate House from a year ago, 12/2019. Photo credit: Anna Mitchel

A beautiful image of Queer Chocolatier's Chocolate House from a year ago, 12/2019. Photo credit: Anna Mitchel

Queer Chocolatier is entering its third holigay season in the Village, fourth overall since the business launched, but this year is the hardest.

I don’t get to see my queer family enter my shop and hear them tell me about their excitement (or nervousness) for the upcoming holidays with their families.

I don’t get to celebrate with them or console them.

I don't get to share in their joy or pain.

2020 has been a thief.

Although, I have received more virtual connection and more widespread support this year than any other year we have existed as a business. This comes as a small surprise as the world operates with a lot of virtual meetings now. But it has brought me comfort and I am grateful.

I truly wish we weren’t in the spot to be closed for in-person business, but I cannot reopen with a clear conscience.

Not even for the potential boost of holiday sales.

My health and the health of my community members is not worth that to me.

But please know that I will do all that I can, until my bones are as weary as my heart, to deliver and ship as much chocolate as those who want it for themselves to get through or treat themselves for getting through, and for those who want to treat someone dear they love unapologetically.

If you wish to place your holiday order for shipping, please place your orders by Friday, December 18th so that they will be made and shipped on Monday, December 21st!

If you are local and wish for your goodies to be delivered for the holidays, please place your order by Monday, December 21st so that they will be made and dropped off on Wednesday, December 23rd!

If you wish to get in on the real goodness, check out the delightfully queer collaboration between Queer Chocolatier, Sis Got Tea, and Nanny Goat Books for our Happy Holidays Boxes! Our Basic Box contains a four-pack of truffles (Turtle Truffles or Pomegranate Molasses Truffles), a 4-oz tin of specially-blended holiday tea, and a choice of a paperback book from a carefully curated list! Our Premium Box is stuffed full of a 12-pack of truffles, 8-oz jar of holiday tea, and two paperback books! We intend for this to be a comforting package to help staying at home to be an easier, more enjoyable and indulgent experience! Order our boxes by Wednesday, December 9th!

There are lots of queer-owned businesses and minority-owned businesses out there to support for this gift-buying/giving season. Find one local to you or one that you wish to support from afar! Just know that we are still here to help make your holidays just that little bit more gay and merry!

QC Recipes: Champurrado Drinking Chocolate

QC Recipes: Champurrado Drinking Chocolate

Drinking chocolates can be enjoyed anytime of day but I prefer to begin the day on a high note! Paired with my homemade granola, this was my first experiment with making champurrado before my shop opened. It was a delightful rookie cup and catapulte…

Drinking chocolates can be enjoyed anytime of day but I prefer to begin the day on a high note! Paired with my homemade granola, this was my first experiment with making champurrado before my shop opened. It was a delightful rookie cup and catapulted me into exploring more drinking chocolate concepts!

Chocolate's origins are, in fact, rooted in drinking rather than eating. Mesoamerican cultures long cultivated, harvested, consumed, and traded cacao before colonizers stumbled their way to this hemisphere. With a name meaning Food of the gods, we can see how highly-esteemed theobroma cacao was situated in many of the civilizations from as early as 1900 BCE, with some evidence suggesting even earlier.

Cacao beans were even used as currency. Money literally grew on trees, y’all.

Eating chocolate, as we are more familiar with today, didn’t come onto the scene until the 1800s by comparison.

And as much as we love to eat chocolate, one should definitely have a proper cup of drinking chocolate to walk down the road of becoming a true cocoa connoisseur!

Let your Queer Chocolatier help!

Drinking Chocolate vs. Hot Cocoa

You might ask yourself, what's the difference between drinking chocolate and hot cocoa? Sounds the same, right?

The key difference is the form of chocolate used in the beverage.

Hot cocoa is made with, as you may have guessed, cocoa powder as its base and is mixed with sugar, water or milk, and flavorings. Drinking chocolate, on the other hand, is typically made by gently melting down finished chocolate and incorporating various liquids and other ingredients for flavor and texture.

A good but imperfect analogy would be to compare drip-brewed coffee with hot cocoa and espresso shots with drinking chocolate. The intensity and concentration of chocolate is more present in drinking chocolate as so with espresso shots in the coffee world.

Preparing drinking chocolate orders at Queer Chocolatier's Chocolate House

Preparing drinking chocolate orders at Queer Chocolatier's Chocolate House

We served 4 to 5 different drinking chocolates on our menu, depending on the season, but my favorite is the champurrado. This drink is inspired by the Mesoamerican origins but made more palatable for today's consumers. Although, the modern-day Hoosier in me deeply yearns for that corn…

Ingredients:

For 1 serving of champurrado

  • 1 ounce dark chocolate (no less than 60% cocoa, which is what we use at QC), chopped into small pieces

  • 1 Tablespoon of finely-ground cornmeal

  • ½ teaspoon ground cinnamon

  • ¼ teaspoon ground chipotle

  • 4 ounces of boiling water

Steps:

  1. Set a small cup to the side ready for you to pour your champurrado in immediately after it is prepared.

  2. Place a kettle filled with water on the boil.

    1. If you have an electric kettle, use as instructed by manufacturer.

    2. If you have a non-electric kettle, pour water in and place in stovetop burner to bring to boil.

    3. If you don’t have a kettle, skip this step and move onto step 3.

  3. In a small pot (tbh, I use butter warmers to prepare our drinking chocolates!), combine chocolate pieces, cornmeal, cinnamon, and chipotle and place on stovetop burner on medium-low heat. (If you do not have a kettle, add 4 ounces of water along with the other ingredients in small pot.)

  4. Stir continuously with a heatproof spatula in order to keep chocolate from scorching and to further incorporate dry ingredients into melted chocolate.

  5. Once chocolate is fully melted, pour boiling water in with the melted chocolate and use a whisk to vigorously combine. (If water was added at the beginning, once you see chocolate is melted, switch out the spatula for the whisk to begin mixing vigorously.)

  6. As beverage heats up, the cornmeal will thicken considerably. Check for temperature and flavor by dipping a small spoon in the pot to bring out for a taste. Be careful, please, and don’t burn your tongue!

  7. When beverage is at your desired hot temperature, turn off heat and pour immediately into your serving cup and enjoy!

A couple of notes:

  • Drinking chocolate is absolutely something to make to your tastes! If you want it spicier, add more chipotle. If you don’t like or can’t eat cinnamon, omit it for a different spice you like. If you like a thinner or thicker beverage, adjust the water accordingly.

  • For something a bit more robust, consider swapping hot coffee for the water!

Serving our drinking chocolates with a palate cleanser such as sparkling mineral water provides a fuller tasting experience. Photo credit: Veronica Engle

Serving our drinking chocolates with a palate cleanser such as sparkling mineral water provides a fuller tasting experience. Photo credit: Veronica Engle

Recipes, Chocolate House, Small Business

QC Recipes: Biscuits and Chocolate Gravy

QC Recipes: Biscuits and Chocolate Gravy

One of my very favorite things I used to make at the Chocolate House (before the pandemic…) was our Saturday brunch plate of biscuits and chocolate gravy!

What on earth is chocolate gravy, you ask? I’m glad you did.

My late grandma is from Tennessee and she used to make it for Saturday breakfast, as told to me by my aunt. I'd never had it before, but when we were building out the Chocolate House, I thought I would make a test batch at home and see if it was something to include in our offerings.

It immediately won over my wife, who serves as the true arbiter of taste in our household. Cheri can be picky but it is always in a way that serves as a line of what is high-quality and what’s not.

We both got excited about offering brunch to the queer community! Muncie, meet biscuits and chocolate gravy; biscuits and chocolate gravy, meet Muncie!

The very first plate of B&CG I ever made!

The very first plate of B&CG I ever made!

If You Like Biscuits and Any Gravy, You’ll Love Biscuits and Chocolate Gravy

Some folks who have never heard of chocolate gravy are universally skeptical at first. My wife included. The concern is whether the chocolate gravy is too sweet.

It isn’t. Trust.

It is situated somewhere between sweet and savory.

Serving it atop warm, tender biscuits helps anchor the gravy from drifting too far into the sweet category as well.

Here’s a bonus: I’ve created a way to make the whole plate vegan!

Part of our mission at Queer Chocolatier is to stand in solidarity with people of all sorts of diets, including vegans, and have the majority of our offerings suitable for their diet.

I’ll offer both versions, with dairy and without, in the recipe below!

The gravy itself is not hard to make but it can be easily ruined, so I tend to recommend not starting your gravy until at least you’ve put your biscuits in to bake or when they are out of the oven altogether. Also, the recipe for the gravy is what I use, but I include some of my preferred optional flavorings as well; feel free to experiment with flavors you enjoy! Gravy is more about expressing your own preferences, some like thinner gravy while others like it thick and never leaving the biscuit surface. Make it your way!

And, in case you wondered, yes these biscuits can be made in a toaster oven!

Ingredients:

For Biscuits (Yield: 6 biscuits)

  • 2 cups All-purpose Flour

  • ¾ teaspoon Salt

  • 1¼ tablespoons Baking powder

  • 1 stick, 8 tablespoons, very cold and cubed Butter (vegan version: butter alternative, such as Earth Balance or Country Crock's plant-based offerings, preferably the avocado over the olive oil)

  • ½ cup Milk (vegan version: unsweetened soy milk), may need to add more, so keep handy.

Steps:

  1. Preheat oven to 425° F.

  2. Combine dry ingredients in large bowl and whisk to incorporate.

  3. Cut butter into dry mixture. Use your hands to work butter into the mix as quickly as possible so as to not get the butter too warm, but get your final mix looking kind of sand and the butter pieces no bigger than pea-sized.

  4. Make a well in the dry ingredients and pour the milk into the well. Stir to incorporate, but only just. Do not overwork mixture, as biscuits will get tough and not rise well.

  5. Turn out biscuits dough onto counter and shape into a disk that is an even 1” thick throughout. Use a 2” biscuit cutter to cut out biscuits and place them onto a parchment-lined baking sheet. Re-shape scraps and cut more biscuits. I always made myself an “ugly” biscuit I shape by hand with the final remaining scraps that I couldn’t use to cut with biscuit cutter!

  6. Bake for 12-15 minutes, until tops are golden brown.

  7. Remove from oven, serve warm with gravy.

Ingredients:

For Chocolate Gravy (Yield: 2 cups)

  • 1 cup Sugar

  • ¼ cup Cocoa powder

  • 3 tablespoons All-purpose flour

  • Pinch of Salt

  • 2 cups Milk (vegan version: unsweetened soy milk)

  • 4 tablespoons, cubed, Butter (vegan version: butter alternative, such as Earth Balance or Country Crock's plant-based offerings, preferably the avocado over the olive oil)

  • Optional: serve with a pinch of ground cinnamon and ground chipotle, maybe add 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract to be real fancy!

Steps:

  1. Combine dry ingredients in a medium pot, whisking until fully incorporated.

  2. Place pot on stove top on medium-low to medium heat and slowly stream milk into mixture, whisking to remove lumps.

  3. Cook, stirring frequently and paying special attention to the bottom and sides of pot where gravy can thicken (and burn!) until gravy is warm and thickened to desired consistency, realizing gravy will continue to thicken as it cools.

  4. Add cubed butter at the end of cooking and stir to combine until all butter is melted and gravy has a shiny, glossy appearance.

  5. Serve over fresh biscuits or just eat with a spoon from the pot, I ain’t about to judge.

  6. Gravy can be stored in a jar in the refrigerator for about a week. When reheating, use a microwave (30 seconds at a time, stirring in between) or return gravy to a pot but add a bit of milk to thin out while bringing gravy to desired temperature.

Instagram photos from customers who have unapologetically indulged in Queer Chocolatier Biscuits & Chocolate Gravy

Photo credit: Benjamin Strack (IG @photogben)

Photo credit: Benjamin Strack (IG @photogben)

Photo credit: Ryan Remington (IG @ryanisadope)

Photo credit: Ryan Remington (IG @ryanisadope)

Photo credit: Amy Shaw (IG @alphanumeric.71697

Photo credit: Amy Shaw (IG @alphanumeric.71697

Photo credit: Patrick O'Neal (IG @patrick_mcdarling_oneal)

Photo credit: Patrick O'Neal (IG @patrick_mcdarling_oneal)

Cocoa Bean to Chocolate Chip: From Start to…The Beginning

Cocoa Bean to Chocolate Chip: From Start to…The Beginning

Ending Queer Chocolatier's baked goods production has been bittersweet (pun fully intended). The timing of it only adds to the bittersweetness; the middle of October is the most emotionally challenging part of the year for me as 10/8 and 10/17 mark the passing of my great-grandmother and my grandmother, respectively. Having another thing just come to an end arbitrarily, albeit much less significant, seems to add to the loss I feel this month.

But occasionally endings can lead to new beginnings and sometimes even lead back to old beginnings.

My Introduction to Chocolate, Twice

The story of Grandma's chocolate chips is the start of it all for me and it’s a story I love to tell because I just am tickled by young Morgan's shenanigans! If you read that story, you’ll learn I was never suited to become a burglar but definitely was meant to have a career involving chocolate!

For the last several months, I’ve been trying to learn the chocolate-making process. But I’ve not been able to dedicate myself to learning and only have practiced in fits and starts. Running a business and trying to pivot at the same time is challenging, but when a global pandemic made its way to Muncie, pivot was all I could do and running a business was becoming less viable.

I had to abandon my old way of running the business if I wanted Queer Chocolatier to not only survive but to emerge on better footing.

It wasn't easy for me, though.

Selling baked goods was not only a good revenue source, it was a bit of a weird security blanket that provided cover in case I ended up not being good at the thing I wanted to: make chocolate.

My grandma once told me to quit a miserable job I had and she just gave me that permission that I somehow needed as a young person who just graduated from college. I didn’t have another job lined up or anything but that job was definitely a dead end. Not long after, though, I found a decent job that I held for a couple years before becoming a stockbroker.

Dropping something so that you can carry something else is good and healthy but we are not really taught how to do that. I still struggle with it.

But I’m grateful she was my first teacher of this lesson.

Coming off of just dropping the baked goods, I'm scared but ready to carry on learning the chocolate-making process and dedicating myself to the craft.

A reintroduction, if you will.

When I was in the shop yesterday, I was doing a bit of housekeeping. But, for fun, I decided to play and temper a bit of test chocolate I just made earlier in the week to use in a new mold I recently purchased: a chocolate chip mold! I experimented with making a few chocolate chips so as to not waste time, but it seemed to work really nicely!

Baby's First Chocolate Chips!

Baby's First Chocolate Chips!

But this morning, 10/17, I just got hit with the overwhelming sense of how subconsciously I made chocolate chips and started to remember my grandma. I woke up thinking how excited I was for those chips then started sinking into memories.

It made me go through a lot of steps of grieving again.

But this time I'm left feeling hopeful and that I have permission for a yet-another new beginning.

I’ll be sharing a lot about this new beginning and all I learn and struggle with. I want to help others see what the process is like, not simply the chocolate-making process but the process of pivoting a business and learning a new skill and failing but learning from failures. I want folks to be connected to the products I make as much as possible.

Connections, especially now, and even if they’re just in one’s memories, are so important for all of us to pull through together.

Recipes, Small Business, Chocolate House

QC Recipes: Cold Brew Cocoa

QC Recipes: Cold Brew Cocoa

As things are shifting here at Queer Chocolatier, I’ve decided that it might also make for a great opportunity to begin sharing some recipes with readers!

I will hope to have a recipe posted about once a week or so, depending on how the season is going at the shop and whether Dorian will let me sit down to write…

You understand my plight

You understand my plight

My first recipe is incredibly easy and really quite surprisingly pleasant as I literally just tried it for the first time for myself this morning!

Hey, when something is that good, why keep it to myself when I could share it with my family???

COLD brew Cocoa

If you’ve ever had or heard of cold brew coffee, then you gotta try cold brew cocoa!

Some people tend to discuss cold brew coffee as a preferred way to drink coffee without the stomach-wrenching acidity or bitterness that can accompany a typical hot brewed coffee. It has a smoother taste and you don’t have to worry about your coffee getting cold when it already starts out that way!

Cold brew cocoa may require more convincing since the vast majority of the time we consume cocoa is hot or, when not hot, in a frappuccino of some concoction.

But trust your Queer Chocolatier!

I gotchu! Cold brew cocoa is delicious!

Cold brew cocoa: Dark, smooth, but flavorful in a delightfully unexpected way!

Cold brew cocoa: Dark, smooth, but flavorful in a delightfully unexpected way!

To make yourself a serving at home, you likely have all the things you need already.

Ingredients and Materials:

  • Glass (8-12 oz will do nicely) to brew plus a glass to filter into and drink from

  • Spoon

  • Cold water (preferably filtered or bottled)

  • Cocoa powder (any will do, but pick your favorite, and keep an eye out for when QC makes housemade cocoa powder!)

  • Coffee filter (ideally a pour-over coffee set-up of some sort)

That’s it. You may be thinking “But wait! Cocoa powder isn’t sweetened! It is really bitter! I REMEMBER AS A CHILD MY GRANDMOTHER TRICKING ME INTO A BITE OF COCOA POWDER AND I CARRY THOSE SCARS ON MY HEART TO THIS VERY DAY!!”

Ahem, you might be thinking that, but just give this a try first and if you do find that you need to sweeten it up, you can do so just before serving.

Steps:

  • Take your glass and pour your cold water in, leaving a bit of headroom for when you stir.

  • Scoop 1-2 spoonfuls of cocoa powder into your cold water and stir. Be aware that not all of the cocoa powder will dissolve, that’s okay! Just give it a diligent stirring and stop when it is mostly incorporated.

  • Place your glass in the refrigerator overnight.

  • In the next morning, set up a a coffee filter in either a single serving pour over set-up or fit a coffee filter over a clean glass by rolling the edges of the filter over the top of your glass and secure with your non-pouring hand.

  • Take your cold brew cocoa out of the fridge and, without stirring again, pour carefully into your coffee filter. The cocoa solids will be strained away and the water will pour through easily. Discard filter after water is fully filtered.

  • Drink immediately or return to fridge to drink later (but maybe no longer than a day, just go ahead and drink it, you already went through all that trouble). Add any creamer or flavorings similar to how you might fix yourself a cold brew coffee, but be sure to taste it first because you might just like to drink this beverage stra… well… unadulterated.

You can also make ice cubes of cold-brew cocoa and serve a batch of cold brew cocoa over these ice cubes! Or mix & match between cold brew cocoa cubes with cold brew coffee, or vice versa!!

THE POSSIBREWERTIES ARE ENDLESS!!!!

Give this fun beverage a try and let me know your thoughts in a comment below!

LGBTQIA

My Story Of Coming Out

MY story Of Coming Out

…doesn't really exist.

The closest thing to a coming out story I have to share is when I named my business Queer Chocolatier, which I’ll tell more of here in a moment.

Instead, I’ll share what it was like for me as a queer woman before being a queer businesswoman.

But, just before that, I want to stress that it is never incumbent upon anyone to have to come out, even on a day like today: National Coming Out Day.

The most important thing is your safety and if you would come into any immediate harm (i.e. physical violence, mental or emotional abuse, homelessness), weigh those risks carefully before deciding to come out. Maybe you decide to wait until those risks are minimized. Maybe you decide to live your most authentic life despite those risks and come out in spite of it all. Maybe, like many people, it is an ongoing process of sharing part of yourself to certain people in your life. Whatever the case may be, you’re no less queer and we need you in this world.

You’re in charge of your own story.

I never came out, or at least I don’t think i did?

From my experience growing up, I didn’t see a lot of examples of what relationships were like. My mom was a single parent who had me just a couple months before her twentieth birthday, her parents were divorced when I was three years old, and I am an only child so I didn’t have older siblings going out on dates. My uncle is married to a woman but they lived far away when I was a child. My aunt was not married but had friends with her when she would visit my grandpa's house and no one told me what that meant.

I didn’t know what it meant to be queer. Or straight. Or to have any attraction to people.

The only message I'd received was from my grandpa who said, upon my leaving the house to go out with friends, “Don’t get pregnant.” Mostly as a joke I’m sure, but also as a warning about what my future would be like if I were to become pregnant. I’d internalized the message, though, as “Don’t end up like your mother.” So, I never dated or kissed anyone throughout my entire teenaged years.

I do remember my first crush being on a boy in my class in high school. I remember simultaneously having my first celebrity crush on Shirley Manson of Garbage. I definitely had a bigger crush on her than the high school boy. I still crush on her, to be honest!

But, all throughout high school and middle school before that, I was teased pretty aggressively about how well I performed gender roles and fit into the screenplay of heteronormativity. In the hallway as I stood by my locker, kids would ask me whether I was a boy or a girl and snicker while inquiring. I suppose wearing baggy, threadworn clothing and having tangled, greasy hair made them more curious about my gender than my poverty and whether we had hot water at home to wash clothes or take a shower.

The living room of our trailer was also my bedroom from age 11-18.

The living room of our trailer was also my bedroom from age 11-18.

This teasing came from my mother as well, but perhaps not in an expected way; she really pushed me to be a “tomboy" and had said on rare occasion that “raising a boy is easier than raising a girl,” (which, in my own view now, is less a commentary on what gender is easier to raise as much as there are more restrictions and boundaries to place on girls as they grow up). When a music teacher in middle school asked me to try out for choir, my mother’s primary concern was that I would have to wear a skirt and that would be “too girly.”

It's moments like these that painfully come right to the surface whenever I meet people now who knew me when I was younger and they say with self-satisfaction “I knew you were gay! I knew before you knew!”

But I’m not gay.

The overwhelming majority of my relationships and “relationships” have been with women. But I have also been attracted to people who are not women. To that end, I call myself bisexual

But, more accurately, I’m not particularly attracted to anyone unless I have a meaningful connection with that person. I’ve recently learned that this is called demisexual. As having grown up with no one expressing romantic or physical interest in me, it feels like I somehow developed in such a way as to prioritize my connections with people before becoming intimate with people. Maybe out of insecurity or out of protection or both.

There have been exceptions to this rule, sure, but I never had a relationship in which the other person didn’t express interest in me first, whatever their gender.

I never came out, however this is defined, as bisexual until anyone shot their shot. Essentially, the only people who ever really knew my sexuality for the vast majority of my life were the people I was having sex with.

At various points throughout my working career, a coworker here and there would tell me they were gay or lesbian and I would be appreciative of their telling me their story, but since I wasn’t dating anyone whenever these conversations came up, I never reciprocated about me. Plus, I figured why make their story about me in that moment? Perhaps it could have built a better friendship, but it never felt right because responding with “Cool, I’m bi!” while not dating (even though that’s a smidgen of bierasure of myself at that time).

Leaving Indiana

My first serious relationship was when I was 30. Earlier here, I'd shared that I had no relationships in my teenaged years, but my 20s was largely void of relationships as well, except for my early 20s while in college. When I was a 30 y/o graduate student, I started dating a woman who self-identified as stone butch and occasionally discussed her gender identity and expression as “steampunk.” I didn't hide my relationship but I would only discuss it whenever it came up in the course of conversation. The relationship was not healthy, so my lack of broadcasting my relationship was less shame-driven due to my sexuality as it was that I was really unhappy and unsure of how to get out of my situation.

It took graduating, the lease of our shared apartment ending, and moving to Pennsylvania after three months of couchsurfing for me to not only get out of that relationship but to start to emerge a bit more boldly about who I am and start over with no baggage to bring along with me.

When I left PA a year later, I was moving to Austin, Texas and starting a new relationship with a woman. The friends I made in ATX knew I was queer, but my coworkers at the as-you-may-have-guessed fairly conservative Texas Department of Agriculture didn't know until things in my relationship got bad and I’d be crying in my office. They cared about me and my well-being more than whether or not I was queer. I reflect upon their kindness quite often and miss them and Texas quite a bit. Surprisingly to some, in all my life leading up to that point, Texas was the place I’d felt safest in being more open with people about who I am.

getting married + coming out as Queer Chocolatier

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When Cheri and I started dating in the fall of 2015 and got married soon after, this was not only the most open I had been about my sexuality but also the most actively political about it. Looking back on my trajectory, I can see that it took a combination of my own maturity and independence as well as a strong partner and a purpose for me to be able to live authentically.

Purpose came when the 2016 election yielded its results.

Cheri and I were traveling in the weeks before and after Election Day and we were in Austin on the way to the Davis Mountains in west Texas when we heard the news. The mood was bleak in Austin, and Cheri and I were glad to be heading to mountains and relative isolation to mentally and emotionally process. We understood that things were going to be tougher for queer people with the new administration.

Less than a year later, I launched Queer Chocolatier.

I was nervous about how I would be received in terms of both time (in the era of the current administration) and place (Muncie, Indiana).

Truly, this was as big of a coming out moment as I could imagine having. And I'm grateful for all the love and community I have found since coming out as a queer businesswoman! Being visible worked for me in this way and in this moment. Every moment that I step further out into the community to take up more space more visibly, the more that energy comes back to me and it builds upward and upward. From having a small table at farmers markets for people to come tell me their stories or to ask me questions on how to support those they love who are queer or trans to having a queer sober space at the Chocolate House where people would come on dates or young queer teens would bring their parents, the momentum just sweeps me up to do more and say more.

But in case it isn’t clear, let me say this:

My name is Morgan Roddy. I use she/her/hers pronouns. I'm queer and I sell chocolate. And I wish you a Happy and Proud National Coming Out Day, however you choose to celebrate it!

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Taking a Risk to Pivot

Taking a Risk to Pivot

COVID-19 has been really tough for many of us, especially small businesses. For me at Queer Chocolatier, it has been nothing but extreme highs and extreme lows. My mental health has been taxed and one of the more effective ways to wrestle with that is to reflect and look back to the early stages of the business and track how things have changed over the years.

I’ve long wanted to get Queer Chocolatier into the craft chocolate making arena and I’ve tested and experimented, but the time was never quite right. But that phrase itself indicates a mindset for me that I have long struggled with: I am in a prolonged reaction mode rather than a goal pursuit mode.

I’m ready to shift my mindset and make the pivot to committing more time, energy, and resources to the goal of creating my own chocolate, bean to bar to truffle.

Baby’s First Sack of Beans!

Baby’s First Sack of Beans!

But this comes at a risk and one I am very scared to take, especially in light of my COVID-19 related business slowdown.

Queer Chocolatier will be ceasing baking operations

I love to bake.

But I do love chocolate more and Queer Chocolatier was never designed, and it sure was never equipped, to be a bakery.

I began preparing baked goods once we opened the Chocolate House as an additional set of offerings for when people sit to sip their coffee or drinking chocolate. At first, I was baking out of the original rental kitchen from when I started the business as a vendor at markets and events selling my truffles. Having our own brick & mortar location for people to sit and gather safely, it made sense to expand into these offerings.

Adding the baked goods was fun and exciting and allowed me to show that I have a breadth of culinary talent and I draw great pride from this. Cooking and baking for others, and the joy I get from sharing food with people, is wholly the reason I wanted to start a business.

As I consolidated all my operations under one roof, it became clear I couldn't offer baked goods, until I was gifted a mighty toaster oven! The appliance has absolutely punched above its weight by allowing me to create items ranging from macarons to pain au chocolat and the occasional bagel and scone.

This little toaster oven that could was so brilliant that I purchased an identical one so that I could double my productivity!

Mind you, “double” my productivity meant going from baking six croissants to twelve, which is less than half of what I could produce at the rental kitchen.

When the pandemic arrived at our doorstep, we were quick to close operations and attempt to make adjustments for the unknowable future. It was beyond painful, and not only in a financial sense but in a true community sense as I felt crushed by irrational guilt of not being able to provide that safe space as we had been able to before. Nevertheless, our community helped me understand that Queer Chocolatier was more than just a space to them and they cared for me by raising enough funds through a GoFundMe to allow us to financially survive the summer! Since then, I've implemented a rickety and fragile delivery system for those who live locally in Muncie and just this week resumed shipping truffles again throughout the nation.

In the midst of this turbulence, I purchased a couple pieces of key chocolate making equipment and decided on our bar molds for our brand. Studio 165+ has started on their wonderfully creative journey to design the bar wrappers for my upcoming bars. I am increasingly excited that I'm on the path of creating bean-to-bar chocolate, despite knowing I have created my own roadblocks via baking.

Queer Chocolatier: We aren’t straight and neither are our bars!

Queer Chocolatier: We aren’t straight and neither are our bars!

Ultimately, this all comes down to one thing: my kitchen. If my kitchen would have been outfitted with and permitted to have the oven and hood system that I long ago purchased, I would be able to streamline baking with chocolate making. I’d even be able to bring back one of my employees to do that work exclusively. Perhaps one day down the road, we will find a new location that is properly outfitted and ready to go for opening a proper bakery! (Keep an eye out for me, y’all.) But so long as Queer Chocolatier is located where it is and how it is, I'm at a crossroads of choosing between creating baked goods so that I can get some sales for now or foregoing baked goods in order to hone my chocolate making craft to make bars that will carry my business into the future.

One choice is comfortable, one is risky.

I’m taking the risk.

And I hope you’ll support my choice and continue to support Queer Chocolatier.

Baked goods last call

I’ll accept orders for baked goods for the next two weeks so that people who might be interested can place their orders before I wind down my baking operations. Place an order by Monday 10/5 for delivery on Wednesday 10/7, or for the following week by Monday 10/12 for delivery on Wednesday 10/14.

There is the possibility that I will consider holiday baked goods for Thanksgiving and Christmas, but I am floating this as a possibility not as a promise. I hope to be selling lots of chocolate during the holidays, hopefully including bars, so the baked goods might be too much to add on.

But, that's basically years away at this rate so we will just continue on one day at a time and keep working to build a stronger business that doesn’t just hope to survive the pandemic but that grows into a competitive craft chocolate brand that is proudly rooted in Muncie!

Remember to take care of yourselves, others, and to drink plenty of water! Your Queer Chocolatier loves you!

We Have to Help Our Neighbors

We Have to Help Our Neighbors

Mr. Rogers was famously quoted recalling something his mother told him as a young boy, “Look for the helpers.” He would become distressed as a child seeing reports and images of scary things in the news and this was his mother’s comfort, that there were also people helping during scary times.

But at some point, to the best we can, we have to be the helpers.

Care For and Connect With Your Neighbors

“Neighbors” and “friends” are words I tend to use when greeting someone in my shop or when I’m out in the community. Maybe it’s because I’m getting old. Nevertheless, I enjoy using these words because I want to push the boat out on what it means to identify someone as a neighbor. They might not be someone who lives right next to me, but they are an individual I care about and would want to connect with if they, or I, are ever in need or distress.

Things that impact a neighbor have some likelihood of impacting me as well, so at the very least, caring for and connecting with neighbors is enlightened self-interest.

It can also be somewhat performative; maybe others will see me trying to help a neighbor and be inspired to help their own neighbor.

But, in most cases that I experience personally, if I don’t offer material help at a time when I could, it gnaws at me and I carry that burden for quite some time. I may not be able to offer much to many, but I can offer something to someone.

And, sometimes, the only thing I can offer is my platform and voice.

The West Coast Is Devastated

I am a Midwesterner, through and through. I’ve been to California twice as an adult. I’ve never been on the West Coast north of Los Angeles, California. But the whole coast is engulfed in historic wildfires that are a nightmarish reality to hundreds of thousands of people.

We have to care for our neighbors, even those who you’ve never met, even if they live in parts of the country you’ve never visited.

I have friends that I care deeply for who live in this part of the country and I have a best friend who lives near me in Muncie who is from Oregon. I get a glimpse of how much they are emotionally wrecked by the layering of catastrophes, first a pandemic and now the very land they reside on is reducing to ash. All during social upheaval and disruptions to normalcy of daily living.

How quickly things progressed in the Portland area regarding the smoke and ash from the wildfires.

How quickly things progressed in the Portland area regarding the smoke and ash from the wildfires.

Photos taken of the community 15 miles away from where Erin M. lives.

Photos taken of the community 15 miles away from where Erin M. lives.

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I cannot imagine or fathom what it must be like.

But, I want to connect people to the best of my abilities for others to help as much as they can.

I would hope someone would try to care for me and my wife if something like this happened to us in the Midwest. And, the longer we continue down the path we are on as a society that is not showing a collective will to tackle climate change, this will happen to all of us at some point or another in some way or another.

It’s time for some collective enlightened self-interest.


Running List of Opportunities to Help

I will be collecting and posting links to various nonprofits, GoFundMe efforts, Venmo and PayPal type accounts, and more as I am made aware of them so that readers of this blog post can find some way they feel comfortable to give.

I have not personally vetted all these links, I would ask that you make sure you feel comfortable to give before giving, but please find somewhere you feel comfortable to help. I’ll make a note as to where I found the links so that you can have some sense of how I became aware of them if it helps you make decisions in your offering of help.

I will post updates to the list as more are sent to me and move them to the top of the list so that they are viewed.

If you live in Washington, Oregon, California, Colorado, or any other state that has been impacted by the wildfires, please reach out and we will do what we can to help.

Links As Of Sunday 9/13/2-2020:

GoFundMe for Rob & Sharon Boehm (as provided to me by my dear friend Emily W.)

American Red Cross updates and donation pages (as recommended to me by Anna P.)

Saving Grace Pet Adoption Center to help care for the animals and pet-owners in Oregon (as provided by Erin M.)

Thriving Waters: Umpqua Valley Farm to School (as provided by Erin M.)

GoFundMe for Dan & Sue Myers (as provided by Erin M.)

GoFundMe for the Miller family (as provided by Erin M.)

GoFundMe for the Quimby family (as provided by Erin M.)

GoFundMe for Simon Talcott, who was fighting fires while his home was damaged by wildfire (as provided by Erin M.)

A Venmo request via Facebook for the folks at 138 Grill who have been helping feed and care for those in need (as provided by Erin M.)

Provided by Erin M. “This mama has a newborn baby and had about 20 minutes to leave their home before it burned to the ground. She has 3 kids total and her husband. They found an apartment and are furnishing it and had a trailer full today.”

Provided by Erin M. “This mama has a newborn baby and had about 20 minutes to leave their home before it burned to the ground. She has 3 kids total and her husband. They found an apartment and are furnishing it and had a trailer full today.”

GoFundMe for Tashina Najmar (as provided by Erin M.)

United Way of Greater Douglas Fire Relief Fund (as provided by Erin M.)

A donation compilation for Jackson County (as provided by Erin M.)

GoFundMe for the community of Glide (as provided by Erin M.)

Black Lives (Still) Matter

The wheels of justice move very slowly for those who are marginalized, but they can spin with dizzying speed when activated toward marginalized populations.

A recent example, which I won't link to any hashtags, is a murder of a child by a Black man who was apprehended with great speed but the murder was also leveraged as a derailing conversation about which lives matter and why.

Although it is a recent example, it fits the pattern of how our society handles (or doesn’t handle) racial reckoning conversations.

It’s been less than three months since the police murder of George Floyd and the Minneapolis Uprising but while there are continued efforts to fundamentally challenge and change the way policing is conducted in our nation, some of the efforts are waning and some conversations are pivoting. For Breonna Taylor, it’s been a couple months longer but with less justice and, unfortunately, more memes.

Months in the year of 2020 feel like decades.

There is a lot of fatigue in our communities. There is a lot of uncertainty and anguish and frustration. There is economic risk and health risk cutting deep in our cities and towns. Institutional leadership is absent at best and actively harmful at worst. Even the Democratic mayor of Indianapolis is asking for the federal government to send in uber-police ostensibly to combat gun violence but with an active tip line that might be easily weaponized against community leaders engaged fully in protest and societal change. This, just mere weeks after a beautiful Black Lives Matter street mural on Indiana Avenue was painted (and later vandalized).

When will we white people recognize that the answer to police brutality is not more police? When will we white people recognize that the police aren’t a cudgel for us to use at our whim of perceived danger, which we would do well to see as discomfort instead? When will we white people who are property owners and business owners recognize that the perceived inconvenience of engaging with Black people as tenants or customers is not reason enough to leverage the systems of courts and police to have them evicted or removed via simple accusation?

Because for white people like myself, we are talking about moments.

A moment of discomfort at seeing a Black family at a park.

A moment of having a Black man walk into your place of business.

A moment (perhaps slightly elongated) of having Black individuals or families as renters.

But when we activate the system of justice, no justice is done; our moment of discomfort might feel like it has been corrected but a life trajectory could be altered for the Black individuals who are “being dealt with.” Evictions can devastate a person’s ability to get or keep a job, obtain new housing, have any semblance of positive mental or physical health. Removing someone from public spaces via police can become violent or deadly for many Black, Indigenous, or People of Color (BIPOC) and it can have a significant chilling effect for those who witness or later hear about the lack of freedom of movement. And businesses calling the police for perceived theft is also an incredibly dangerous way to resolve a potential business loss.

On May 27th, I wrote the following Facebook post about businesses and their relationship with the police:

Lots of people have been making comments and reacting over the recent police murder(s, because it wasn't just George but it's been so many this month, this year, this...). I want to address something that I haven't seen tackled head on and I do so as a small business owner speaking out to other business owners and managers and trainers, etc.: Review your training policies and revamp them to remove treating your city's police force as your security and collections department. Businesses have insurance. If you are subjected to actual fraud or theft or vandalism, file your insurance claim and work with the other organizations that your business engages with regularly to recover what you can. Yeah, it sucks, but owning and operating and managing business has risks which is what insurance is there for to help mitigate. Also, train yourself and train your employees to understand what your implicit biases are, undergo some sociological and cultural trainings to learn more about yourself and what prejudices you have in order to minimize (both in frequency and intensity) your reactions to your prejudices; if you think someone in your place of business "looks sketchy," ask yourself why before calling 911. Instincts are important but they are also culturally informed and our culture says "minorities are scary." As members of our communities, businesses have a civic responsibility and we should be very critical and exceedingly cautious in calling the police as it can end up in horrifying situations. I have little ground to stand on with police brutality and violence as I am a white woman who is neurotypical and able-bodied. But as a business owner, I want to make this conversation happen. We need to make the differences where we can and business owners would do well to make their needed changes.

I wonder how many businesses could actually do this. I wonder how many insurance companies would support this without police reports being made.

But, the police absolutely should not be used as collections departments or security because that is a really poor use of public taxpayer dollars for one, but they are also terribly ineffective and inefficient at solving the perceived problem in that moment while quite possibly creating other and bigger problems.

All of this is to say that I, as a business owner and white queer woman living in Muncie, Indiana, know I have some small platform to keep pushing on. I am proud to know people here locally who are regularly holding vigils for Black individuals who have been murdered by police and speaking their names because they were concerned that the moment was passing us by while people were moving on. White people have been uncomfortable for a few months now with being told to wear a mask and that Black Lives Matter so it only follows that many white individuals are caught saying some version of these phrases on repeat: “We have to move on. We have to live our lives.”

The urge to move on means we aren’t able to sit with the discomfort of where we are. That urge in and of itself is a sign that WE KNOW we aren’t in a good place but if we can’t reconcile how we got here, we can’t get out to something better.

I’m sitting. I’m very uncomfortable. I’m learning. I’m saying Black Lives Still Matter.

Our window art isn’t coming down any time soon. #BlackLivesMatter Artist: Sydney Teare

Our window art isn’t coming down any time soon. #BlackLivesMatter Artist: Sydney Teare

How Did a Stockbroker Turned Sociologist Become a Chocolatier?

How Did a Stockbroker Turned Sociologist Become a Chocolatier?

Here’s How My Past Life Experiences Intersect: Love of Chocolate

Caffeinating, reflecting, and smiling! Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

Caffeinating, reflecting, and smiling! Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

I find that being an expert in people, rather than an expert in chocolate, is what makes me an excellent chocolatier.

Why?

Because caring about the lived experiences of people makes me work hard at my craft as well as research deeply into all of the aspects of chocolate-making that are upstream from the customer.

I’m a Chocolatier, but before that…

In 2000, I was an art student with long hair, Rage Against the Machine t-shirt, and a bottle of cream soda on the way to Georgia to participate in a protest against American-backed violence in Latin America.

In 2000, I was an art student with long hair, Rage Against the Machine t-shirt, and a bottle of cream soda on the way to Georgia to participate in a protest against American-backed violence in Latin America.

I have a Bachelor's degree in Fine Art and in Sociology, and although they were earned at the same institution, they were conferred seven years apart. In between, I worked for over four years as a stockbroker (I know…). After my Sociology undergraduate studies, I pursued a Master's degree in Sociology culminating in a thesis using qualitative methods to learn about the decision making processes of farmers’ market managers and vendors on whether they would accept WIC & SNAP benefits.

I had a goal of earning my PhD in Rural Sociology with a focus on food and agriculture and, after a year of doctoral studies at The Pennsylvania State University, I dropped out with tons of student loan debt, a vitamin D deficiency and a mysterious case of hepatitis A, and the need to change my life but some deep sadness as well. I didn’t know what I would do with my life, but a PhD wasn’t the way for me to proceed.

Graduate school, especially while at Penn State, is where I really threw myself into cooking for others.

Graduate school, especially while at Penn State, is where I really threw myself into cooking for others.

I moved to Texas, worked for the Texas Department of Agriculture as an inspector, volunteered at the Austin Public Library as a computer literacy coach, and joined a group of people to create a community garden in North Austin.

Texas was my food paradise! It is the one place in the world i’m homesick for and it is almost entirely due to the food I ate while living there.

Texas was my food paradise! It is the one place in the world i’m homesick for and it is almost entirely due to the food I ate while living there.

After two years, I moved back to my home state of Indiana and joined Purdue Extension as an Extension Educator in the areas of Health & Human Sciences and Agriculture & Natural Resources. Shortly after getting married to my wife, I relocated to Minneapolis and became affiliated with my third Big Ten University as an Evaluation Specialist with the University of Minnesota.

My time in Minnesota included getting bewildered and exhausted on the Superior Hiking Trail. Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

My time in Minnesota included getting bewildered and exhausted on the Superior Hiking Trail. Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

As a sociologist, I am trained to critically examine systems and institutions and their impacts (intended or unintended) on individuals and environments.

As a person who studied Rural Sociology with a concentration in the Sociology of Agriculture and Food, my preferred system to study is agriculture, particularly the relationship between consumers and producers of food as well as links in the supply chain.

As a former stockbroker, I regularly studied historical prices of stocks, mutual funds, commodities, alongside how companies are evaluated in the market and considered this training as adequate preparation to later become a sociologist who prioritizes labor over wealth.

As an artist, I understand how challenging it is to communicate to others the value of your labor, your voice, and your work versus simply creating ready-made art to make and sell quickly and cheaply.

The throughline for all of these experiences was my love of eating, drinking, working with and, more recently, making chocolate. So whenever people ask me “Hey, how did you become a chocolatier anyway?” I generally reply, “Oh. The usual way.”

In the middle of it all: chocolate

Chocolate is something that a lot of people love yet not all those who love chocolate have considered it more deeply. We tend to associate chocolates as items worthy of gifting or consuming as a luxury, but we are inundated with literal tons of chocolate candies, cookies, cakes, cereals, syrups, dairy products. Chocolate is both luxurious and ubiquitous. How are both possibly true at the same time?

While working with chocolate, I do wrestle with lots of questions related to how cacao is grown and chocolate is made, consumed, and perceived. Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

While working with chocolate, I do wrestle with lots of questions related to how cacao is grown and chocolate is made, consumed, and perceived. Photo credit: Cheri Madewell

As my past experiences continued to converge, my curiosity about chocolate grew. The artist in me played with new ingredients and tinkered with recipes. The sociologist in me wondered about where the money was going when I purchase chocolate. The stockbroker in me answered the sociologist by researching cocoa commodities prices. The rural sociologist in me started thinking of the global supply chain and how end consumers are connected to cacao growers.

Be curious about what you eat and who makes it

Ideally, you have a local chocolate shop with people who will happily engage with you much like how you would want to engage with a produce vendor at a farmers market or a butcher in a local meat market. Purchasing from passionate experts is a great way to learn more about your food and also about the steps that brought your food to you. These experts carefully curated their ingredients, perfected their techniques, and hopefully cultivated sustainable and ethical relationships with growers.

In lieu of having a local chocolate shop, search for high-quality chocolate shops online! There are growing numbers of chocolate makers and chocolatiers in the United States and the quality is getting better as the number of makers grow. But, perhaps even more importantly, as the pool of chocolate makers grows, the spread of information grows and transparency becomes normalized. I look forward to the day when a savvy shopper allows their skepticism to control their wallet when they encounter a business of any sort where transparency is devalued.

It is not always easy to get detailed answers about any of your food from a big box supermarket, either.

Labels are the primary source of information for shoppers, but they can be confusing in many ways; sometimes what appears to be informational is actually marketing. This holds true for chocolate as well. When you’re making a chocolate purchase, think clearly about what you’re wanting with that purchase. Do you want to know where the beans come from and how they were grown? Do you want to know if there are any fillers that mask the chocolate profile? Labels can guide you on these journeys. Just don't fall for the notion that “higher means better quality" when it comes to the percentage of cacao content in any given bar. A one-hundred percent bar made with substandard cacao beans is not likely to be as delicious as a 60% bar with premium quality, fine-flavor beans.

My childhood dream, achieved… in a way

It’s funny, though, when I reflect on all the twists and turns of my professional career because they all do have one common thread: education.

Wee little Morgan wanted to be a teacher and a chef! Thirty-five years later, i’m kinda both!

Wee little Morgan wanted to be a teacher and a chef! Thirty-five years later, i’m kinda both!

When I was little, I had the idea that I was going to be an art teacher. That was the aim of my youthful arrow and why I earned a Fine Art degree. But, once I was in the courses for education majors, I saw I didn’t fit and felt like I had to give up the idea of being a teacher.

Somehow, I’m lucky. I got to spend many years of my adult life pursuing and sharing education. I have a liberal arts background that introduced me to many topics of inquiry and helped me shape critical thinking skills. Both of these were key to my ongoing learning as an adult and allowed me to become an educator in an informal sense.

When I was even younger, I had an imaginary career as a chef as well!

I never had an inkling that chocolate would be the material way my childhood imagination came into my grownup world!

Updates to the Future of Queer Chocolatier

Updates to the Future of Queer Chocolatier


The phrase "it's been a rollercoaster" has been something I've said almost hourly since Monday's newsletter went out. Between this moment and less than 48 hours ago, I have been uplifted in a way that emboldens me and deepens my belief in our community. 

Standing in solidarity also means allowing for your community to support you. I am learning, in very real-time, this lesson and I am unspeakably grateful for this education!

After I let y'all know I am in danger of not being able to sustain my overhead costs at the worst possible time of my business operations in the midst of a pandemic, one of our customers reached out to me and was compassionate and kind in starting a GoFundMe page to help me bridge the gap between the end of May (when I can last safely ship chocolate without melting) and September (when I hope to resume shipping as it begins to cool off). He set the goal of $6,000 so that I can meet my three months' worth of overhead costs.

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Within 18 hours (!!!!), the goal was met and exceeded! Not only that, I now have over 100 orders from Monday until this moment. Approximately $4,500 of gross sales (and over 1,600 truffles to shuffle) comes from these orders and, to place this in proper perspective, our average monthly gross IN-PERSON at the Chocolate House was around $5,000. Our biggest sales day was Indy Pride in 2019 when we sold $4,000 of product, including t-shirts and such. Valentine's Day and Christmas are my biggest online sales days and combining these holiday orders fails to meet what you all provided me with in the last TWO DAYS!

I don't really know what to say. "Thank you" doesn't seem enough. "I appreciate you" falls short. 

Instead, I'll leave the words elsewhere and simply stand by your side and continue to scratch and fight and hold this space for you as you've done for me.

Chocolate and community. That's our special recipe, y'all.

The Future of Queer Chocolatier

The Future of Queer Chocolatier

This month is going to be the deciding period of what the future of Queer Chocolatier will look like in the short term. Long term, I am committed to building and growing my chocolate expertise and continuing to make high-quality chocolate bars and truffles. But, as painful as it is for me to write and acknowledge, the short term of having the physical space of the Chocolate House in the Village in Muncie is increasingly unlikely to last.

My current lease is through the end of March 2021. But the next three months are the most challenging months under the best of circumstances and, as we are all acutely aware, this is not the best of circumstances. June, July, and August are my "Double Whammy" months when I am unable to affordably and responsibly ship chocolate and it is also when students are out of session, which matters when you're located on the edge of a university campus. But when I would ordinarily have consistent Spring Semester business, we were unable to and the last time I had customers in my shop was the second week of March (the first week of March was Spring Break). That time is valuable to us and all of the Village business owners.  I do not lament the shelter-in-place orders whatsoever; in fact, it was also my decision to not have curbside pickup or carry-out business when we were technically allowed to do so but I didn't feel that was safe for all parties involved. My customers' safety is my utmost priority, considering many of my customers are also marginalized folx. But that time is lost to us and we have only the month of May to really make hay while the spring sun shines.

What has happened since we closed for in-store business has been a joy, as I have been able to make weekly deliveries and fulfill more online orders than we have ever had! Honestly, I was caught unprepared and have had delays on fulfilling these supportive orders, but it helped me visualize our online potential. I hope that May can continue to bring an increase of online orders to help buoy us for as long as we can. This month is the last month we will accept orders for shipping. 
 
Here is the deal, in spirit of full transparency: I have had an email conversation with my landlord and there appears to be no way for him to assist our business and that is his prerogative. His one applicable suggestion is one I will enact: I will be posting a For Rent sign in our window to find someone to take over the rest of our lease. The best case scenario is that a qualified tenant signs with him quickly and I am able to vacate and take a summer sabbatical while searching for new kitchen space to create in (Indiana mandates food sold online must be prepared in a certified kitchen). Since I'm unable to ship in the summer as it is, perhaps this is the right time to seek out new partnerships and opportunities. Maybe there are other food establishments who would wish to share space and collaborate with me and allow for me to rent their kitchen in off hours or days they are not open for business. I would be open to this possibility. But, worst case scenario is that a new tenant is not found for my current space and I am unable to pay the overhead costs of the space and who knows what that will mean for us long term financially.

I want to express my deep gratitude to each of you for your support of Queer Chocolatier. Many of you have been following my business since we opened in 2017. I consider myself very lucky to have had the privilege of running a business and having a physical space for people to meet and engage one another in a safe, sober, and fun way. I have been given a platform to discuss issues related to chocolate, farming, economics, and sociology and I hope I've been able to effectively share what I know with you in order to spark your own curiosity about the things I have a passion for. I still believe wholeheartedly in the value of sober queer spaces and hope somehow I can make this happen again. I hope to continue doing this work of sharing curiosity and chocolate and community, but it may be on hold indefinitely as I learn what the future of Queer Chocolatier will be. 

Thank you for supporting me in pursuit of this long-held dream.

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Cocoa and COVID-19: Updates from Queer Chocolatier and Beyond

Cocoa and COVID-19:
Updates from Queer Chocolatier and Beyond

Today marks the beginning of the fifth week of Queer Chocolatier and other local businesses experiencing significant disruption of our day-to-day operations. And, as I mentioned during my recent interview with The Star Press here in Muncie, It has been an emotionally and economically painful period not being able to see, chat with, or serve customers in the Chocolate House.

Truthfully, it wasn’t until the beginning of this disruption that I fully felt how much our space matters to the community; perhaps it is because it is my everyday and I didn’t sense it as much as customers do.

I really f*cking miss having a safe space for queers to gather.

Where we are

Overhead is really difficult to make at this time and I simply cannot thank everyone enough for continuing to share our story and information about QC. I am especially appreciative of those who are able to place baked goods orders or purchasing gift cards to use later as a way to support our ongoing operations! But, I will make a big effort to thank you…

…by re-releasing our truffles!

Not only do I love queers getting front page coverage, but underneath a headline of “A New Normal” adds a nice touch to it. P.S. Not all queers are normal or strive for normal…

Not only do I love queers getting front page coverage, but underneath a headline of “A New Normal” adds a nice touch to it. P.S. Not all queers are normal or strive for normal…

I am beyond thrilled to have chocolate to make truffles once again!

But the manner in which I have chocolate to make truffles is one of borne of necessity; I am now the proud owner of my first sack of cacao beans!

50 kilograms, to be specific.

My very first (hopefully of many) sack of raw cacao beans to launch my chocolate making operations.

My very first (hopefully of many) sack of raw cacao beans to launch my chocolate making operations.

Scale is such a weird thing because this is a big leap from the occasional 5-10lbs I would purchase to experiment with, but I'm certainly overexcited about an amount that some craft chocolate makers buy regularly, and I am definitely no Hershey’s!

But I’m proud. And, like many queers, I'm ready to show off my pride.

My original goal was to become a chocolate maker supplying 100% of the chocolate I use for truffles with the chocolate I make in-house within a year and to craft bars to sell sometime thereafter. But who needs to wait a year when I have more time to dedicate to learning and practicing the craft in real-time!

Join me as I begin my journey of creating my confections, from bean-to-bar-to-truffle!

Where Cacao Farmers Are

The average age of farmers is older than almost all other workers across all industries in the United States. In other words, farmers are continuing to age without younger folx entering the industry. As farmers age and see family members less likely to take up the vocation, they extend their farming careers well into their 50s, 60s and sometimes older.

In many cases, this holds true for cacao farmers across the world as well. Cacao farmers and farmworkers often skew older in age and fewer families see younger generations take up the trade as there is too little money to engage in the very manual and exhaustive labor.

This is why chocolate should cost more, but that is for another blog post.

The reason I bring up the age of cacao farmers is because of the COVID-19 pandemic; we have seen the virus be incredibly harmful to those who are older. Cacao farmers, farming operations, and cooperatives could be directly impacted by the virus, but even if they aren’t, harvest season for some is approaching and any restrictions on work or movement by governments may disrupt cacao harvesting. Disrupted harvests mean less beans, which obviously means less chocolate.

Thankfully, as of yet, the Fine Cacao and Chocolate Institute (FCCI) has not observed any sort of massive supply disruption, based on their recent flash polling of craft chocolate companies. Interestingly, as a point of comparison, the coffee supply chain is beginning to feel more impacts as coffee shops are often more dine-in focused than chocolate shops, and as a result of social distancing measures, coffee shop demand is lower (which means roasters are roasting less, and importers are importing less or altogether canceling orders, which puts smaller exporters in financial distress, not to mention farmers). I’m grateful to Angie at Flying Rhino Coffee for bringing the coffee supply chain concerns to my attention!

The source for my recent purchase of cacao beans is Tumaco, Colombia and I was able to purchase them through Uncommon Cacao, which is an organization that champions the direct trade of cacao beans in order to increase revenues for farmers.

Tumaco is in the Southwestern part of Colombia, near the border with Ecuador, and is along the Pacific coast. The cacao farmers in this area of Colombia are actually among some of the younger-aged growers and are in a relatively remote area. The Colombian government had a 20-day-long shelter-in-place order that was scheduled to be lifted as of April 15. As a result of the order, Cacao Hunters chocolate facility has closed; Cacao Hunters is the partner of Uncommon Cacao in performing quality control evaluations and blending of the beans grown in this region. And, with the temporary closure along with disrupted travel, they are facing some mild challenges but luckily their peak harvest season is not yet here and is maybe six weeks or so away.

All of this is to say, COVID-19 has yet to significantly impact the growers of cacao in Tumaco, but there are reasons to remain vigilant and concerned in the coming weeks.

I will be doing my best to support cacao growers by continuing to purchase beans as I work to grow my chocolate making operations. And, as is it cornerstone to our business model, I will be as transparent about this process by sharing where I am getting my beans and passing through what I am learning about the growers and their practices and relationships in the supply chain.

Where we are going

Honestly, it is not easy to see the road ahead. For our business, our community, and our industry. I’ll only speak to my goals and intentions.

Making chocolate from scratch is the way forward for Queer Chocolatier. We will continue to source from Chocolates El Rey, as the relationship we have had with them since 2017 has been strong, but we will continue to incorporate our own housemade chocolate from beans purchased via direct trade. We will offer our own crafted bars of chocolate for retail purchases in the coming months as well as our truffles and perhaps additional confections.

Our online store will be our primary platform for sales for the foreseeable future and other smaller chocolate businesses are also moving in this direction. And, in full transparency, I am in no rush to open the Chocolate House as I am uncertain as to how safe we will all be if we are to see a lifting of any stay at home orders. Until there is broader testing, I feel as though it isnt responsible for me to open and have dine-in services, no matter how anxious I am to see faces I have been missing for over a month. I intend to follow the guidance of health professionals and scientists leading the way and remain open to changing and evolving data and information.

The craft chocolate industry is strong with relationship-based supply chains and direct trade with cacao growers. But farmers have vulnerabilities and that makes the relationships that much more essential to supporting the health of growing operations.

Knowing that we all exist in a perpetual state of uncertainty, I do want to assure folx that I remain committed to the long-term success of Queer Chocolatier, but I do not wish to make promises beyond this. I will do all I can to remain in our current location in the Village and I feel reasonably confident that I can hold steady until the end of May if nothing else changes. Beyond then and into the summer remain a mystery as I typically do not ship products in the hotter months of the year. But I am shifting my attention to researching shipping options to extend our ability to fulfill online orders in June, July, and August.

Because shipping in the summer has not been a part of our business operations in the past, I have released a new curated 4-pack, our Solidarity Stay-at-Home truffles featuring 3 of our summer flavors (S’mores, Mojito, and PB&J) that are ordinarily unavailable to our customers who get our products in the mail. The fourth flavor is Mulled Wine, which is arguably our most popular truffle flavor! This pack also has included in the cost a built-in tip for our three furloughed employees as I remain as committed as ever to supporting them.

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We are looking forward to establishing a new normal, and we are working to make it one that is more loving and just, not just for our queer and trans community, but for all of those who labor and have unequal access to healthcare. Reducing the links in the supply chain, increasing revenues to those who work hard to produce our raw materials, and diving headlong into our craft is one part of our overall commitment to the new normal. Where we go from here is not back to the way things were, but onward unafraid of making big changes without apology.

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8 Queer Films to Watch During an 8 Week Quarantine: A Guest Blog Post by Matthew Yapp

8 Queer Films to Watch During an 8 Week Quarantine:

The current state of the world is not very fun. If you’re like us at Queer Chocolatier right now, you’re facing the full effects of a global pandemic and nationwide quarantine. But fret not! Scientifically, there is almost nothing that queer cinema can’t fix. Because of that completely peer reviewed and test fact, I’ve gone ahead and compiled a list of LGBTQ+ movies that you can use to distract from the less than ideal situation we’re facing. So sit back, relax, and watch some adorable queer folk find love.

The Way He Looks

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(image source: letterboxd.com)

It’s not all that common to find a movie about disabled queer people, even less so to find one about disabled queer people of color. The Way He Looks comes through delivering a truly touching story that is perfect for these grim times. If you don’t mind subtitles that is, as the film is entirely in Portuguese (be an adult and read the dialogue, it won’t hurt you). Leonardo is a blind teenager coming to the realization that he has feelings for one of his closest friends. A movie that truly moves, The Way He Looks captures that all-too-familiar feeling of awkwardness you get when you fall for your friends and the nostalgic charm of a first crush. With a soundtrack to die for on top of beautiful cinematography this film is certainly worth a watch. It was recently taken off of Netflix but is still available on Amazon Prime Video.


The Birdcage

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(image source: nydailynews.com)

This is a Robin Williams movie. That should be enough for you. I’ll explain more though. Robin Williams is a man in a loving relationship with a drag queen. When their son reveals that he wants his fathers to meet his fiancés’ conservative Christian parents, they devise a scheme to fake straight in order to make things a little easier. This film is as heartwarming as can be and most importantly it’s hilarious. With its charm lying in its characters, The Birdcage is a fantastic film about love, acceptance, and the perfection of Robin Williams. You can watch The Birdcage by renting it on YouTube.


But I’m a Cheerleader

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(Image source: drafthouse.com)

Finally, a lesbian romcom. It’s what we all deserve really. Megan is the girl at school everyone wants to be. She’s a cheerleader, she’s popular, and she’s dating a football star. What more could you want? Well, in Megan’s case, she wanted to date girls. When her parents send her to a conversion therapy camp, she begins to truly find herself and love. Natasha Lyonne truly shines in this film, but honestly who’s surprised? While the film sounds a little dramatic, it’s actually a very sweet and funny movie that doesn’t take itself too seriously. Also, RuPaul plays a conversion therapist which is something everyone needs to see, so check it out. This film is available on Amazon Prime Video


Boy Meets Girl

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(Image source: Washington post)

It was depressingly hard to find a trans love story which is fairly reflective of the representation that trans folks often receive from the media. However, after some searching, I found Boy Meets Girl. The story centers around a young woman named Ricky who wants to abandon her small town and move to New York. Things grow more complicated as we see her relationships with her friends change and a relationship with a new woman in town blossom. In full transparency, I think this movie has some technical issues when it comes to sound design and visuals. That being said it is tender, touching, and unexpected. I think it is a pretty solid queer love story that can satisfy your desire for some good trans representation. You can actually get this film on YouTube for the low price of $1.99


4th Man Out

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(Image source: Hollywood Reporter)

This movie shines a light on one of the very realistic but often ignored struggle for queer people, which is coming out in your adult life. Far too often in media it is looked at as something that is done tearfully and simply in your teen years, but for many people, they go well into their adulthood before feeling comfortable discussing their sexuality with their loved ones. 4th Man Out centers around Adam’s changing life as he comes out as gay to his three extremely close, extremely bro-ish, best friends. It explores the dynamics of friendships between straight and gay men rather well, and, at the end of the day, it’s really charming and funny. Also Chord Overstreet from Glee is in it, and is anything more gay than a movie that ties back to Glee? 4th Man Out is available to stream on Netflix.


Love, Simon

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(Image source: slashfilm.com)

Come on, you had to expect this one. This film was a trailblazer in its own right having a major company putting into theaters all across the country, Love, Simon focuses on a young man named Simon and his journey through self-acceptance and desire for love. In a similar vein to But I’m a Cheerleader, this movie is just a classic high school love flick. I think that is good though because the generation of queer teenagers in high school right now deserve to see the same campy love stories that their straight peers get to see.  It’s nothing groundbreaking in terms of story but genuinely sometimes you just want to watch something dumb and romantic. Love, Simon is easy listening in terms of queer love and would be an excellent movie to watch if you focus on something a little more wholesome than the world around us. Love, Simon is currently streaming for free if you have a Disney+ subscription, and is available on Amazon Prime for rent if you do not.


San Junipero

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(Image Source: IMDB.com)

Okay listen, I know not everyone classifies this one as a movie, but it’s an hour long stand-alone story, it’s perfect, and it’s my list, so we’re going with it. San Junipero is equal parts mysterious and moving. It is the only movie on this list that brought me to genuine tears just from the emotion it creates. The story centers around Kelly and Yorkie, two women who meet in the ’80s and their relationship develops from there. Everything about this movie is beautiful: the costumes, the cinematography, the score, and most importantly, the relationship between the characters. San Junipero can be watched on Netflix. 


Carol

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(Image source: Vox.com)

Carol is one of my favorite movies of all time and Cate Blanchett is literally the greatest actress of all time. The movie follows a young department store worker and aspiring photographer who begins a complex relationship with a rich mother going through a divorce. The film, which takes place in 1952, really delves into the difficulties and complex nature of being queer in the past. The movie is visually stunning. Director Todd Haynes and cinematographer Affonso Gonçalves deserve all the praise in the world for how gorgeous this movie was. It was shot on an ARRIFLEX 416 Camera with special lenses specifically to make it look sort of older, the high saturation on it makes it almost feel like you're watching a movie on old film. I can’t recommend this movie enough. It was sadly taken off of Netflix but can still be rented on Vudu.com

And there you have it, a collection of queer movies sure to brighten any quarantined individuals socially distant days. If you liked these suggestions and would like to hear more hot takes from me, follow me on Twitter @mattyappish. 

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The Movement to Build a Queer + Sober Community

The Movement to Build a Queer + Sober Community

As Cheri and I wrote last November, queer, safe spaces are becoming a more in demand. Especially so for those spaces that serve the queer community while also maintaining an alcohol-free environment.

The number of queer sober spaces is growing at such a rate that mainstream media is beginning to pick up on the movement!

Recently, NBC covered Queer Chocolatier, Sis Got Tea and even more businesses and organizations that are aiming to fill the gap in local scenes. I was fortunate to express my thoughts on how vital spaces such as ours is to the social fabric:

For Roddy, keeping Queer Chocolatier alcohol-free is a commitment to keeping the space accessible to patrons of all ages and those recovering from substance abuse. She also believes it will foster a better environment for political discourse and community activism.

Me, queerly dunking a palmier in a queer cup of coffee while wearing an orange queer t-shirt, with a bunch of photos queer folx on our Family Wall in the background.

Me, queerly dunking a palmier in a queer cup of coffee while wearing an orange queer t-shirt, with a bunch of photos queer folx on our Family Wall in the background.

Cheri and I recently traveled to Louisville, KY to meet and partner with Arielle Clark, who owns Sis Got Tea for an event hosted by Trouble Bar to pair her tea-infused mocktails (and, for some, cocktails) with a selection of our truffles. Arielle and I have had opportunities to discuss the importance of queer, sober spaces and we share the same passion to serve our communities. In supporting one another, we increase each other’s chance to support their local residents.

From left to right, Cheri Madewell, Morgan Roddy, and Arielle Clark at an event “Sis Got Tea in Trouble.” Madewell and Roddy are co-owners of Queer Chocolatier in Muncie, IN and Clark is the owner of Sis Got Tea in Louisville, KY

From left to right, Cheri Madewell, Morgan Roddy, and Arielle Clark at an event “Sis Got Tea in Trouble.” Madewell and Roddy are co-owners of Queer Chocolatier in Muncie, IN and Clark is the owner of Sis Got Tea in Louisville, KY

It is my hope that 2020 is a big year for building the movement for more queer and sober places. And, as LGBTQIA+ youth become more aware of themselves at younger ages, there needs to be spaces for them to interact with other queer individuals. Queer bars absolutely are still incredibly important to the LGBTQIA+ population, but it is nice to see a burgeoning development of options available for folx that meets the needs for all ages and for those in recovery.

Join this movement!

Find the local queer businesses in your community and support them.

Especially if they are sober spaces.

More especially if the owners are multi-marginalized. Not just because it is "the right thing to do" but because you'll be pleasantly surprised with how much thought and care is put into their spaces and products to make them as accessible and enjoyable as possible which, as it turns out, has a lot of costs and not much profit margin associated with creating that space or product.

But these queer pioneers are passionate about their craft and their commitment to community and are willing to work hard to build these businesses!

Here’s a way to support Queer Chocolatier: consider shopping with us for your Valentine's Day chocolate gifts! Valentine's Day is an important milestone holiday for our business and if you only shop with us once, this time of year has the most positive impact for us!

Valentine’s = Digging Deeper in Exploring Chocolate

January isn't the first time in the course of a year I begin thinking about Valentine's Day, but it is the time I become much more intense in preparing for the chocolate-centric holiday.

However, this year I have turned inward in pushing my own understanding of chocolate through exploring new chocolate makers, new beans, new recipes, new techniques, and new pairings in order to better share my passion with others. I am not only a person who makes things using chocolate; I use chocolate as a way to learn about people, cultures, lands and environments, weather, politics and economics, histories, gender and labor, relationships, and perceptions through senses.

It can be a lot. And many times when folx visit me and ask how I'm doing, sometimes I'm in a state of overwhelm or withdrawal because I've either been saturated with chocolate research or doing more mundane (re: absolutely necessary!) tasks such as payroll, accounting, and shop repairs.

But I'd have it no other way. Except maybe more of it!

Which brings me to sharing with y'all some of the exciting events Queer Chocolatier has upcoming for the lead up to Valentine's Day!

Intro Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring Chocolates El Rey

Intro Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring Chocolates El Rey

On Monday, February 3rd from 7-8:30ish in the evening, we will hold our Intro Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring six chocolate samples from Venezuelan chocolate maker, Chocolates El Rey. During this fun tasting event, you'll sample dark, milk, and white chocolates while learning some of the key terminology involved with describing your perceptions of flavor. You might even make a few new friends along the way!

Intermediate Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring 70% cacao chocolate samples from six different countries made by Dandelion Chocolate

Intermediate Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring 70% cacao chocolate samples from six different countries made by Dandelion Chocolate

The following Monday, February 10th from 7-8:30ish in the evening, our Intermediate Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event will feature six chocolate samples of 70% cacao content from around the world. Here, we will discuss how the terroir and post-harvest practices impact the flavor of chocolate.

Advanced Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring chocolate pairings to create a charcuterie-style board including dark, milk, and white chocolates and curated cheeses, nuts, fruits, breads and spreads

Advanced Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event featuring chocolate pairings to create a charcuterie-style board including dark, milk, and white chocolates and curated cheeses, nuts, fruits, breads and spreads

Not enough chocolate events? Great! On Tuesday, February 11th, from 7-8ish in the evening, Queer Chocolatier will host its first Advanced Level Guided Chocolate Tasting Event! We will explore the variety of ways to pair chocolate with other foods in order to create a charcuterie-style chocolate board. Combining chocolate samples with cheeses as the focused pairings, we will also supplement the spread with fresh and dried fruits, spreads, nuts, and crackers.

If you can’t make these events, fear not! During our open hours, we will have large assortment boxes for you to grab and go in order to share (or not!) And we will be dabbling in a few new-to-us recipes such as Queer Conversation Hearts and some Peanut Butter Cups. We might even bring back a few items that we prepared last year in small batches, including our chocolate-dipped pretzels, chips, and bears!

Happy Valentine's to you and all those you unapologetically love!

You Have Questions. Queer Chocolatier Has (Some) Answers!

You Have Questions.
Queer Chocolatier Has (Some) Answers!

It is vitally important that we continue to seek education and learning and growth as we get older. The world may seem like it is a constantly changing place—and it is—but that doesn’t mean you can’t continue to learn and adapt, especially when your growth (or lack thereof) can impact someone you know.

If you have questions about sexuality or gender identity and expression, either for yourself or someone you unapologetically love, Queer Chocolatier has a resource library that can help you begin your journey! We have around 40 books that explore sexuality and gender through essays, histories, and fiction. Some are deep into theory, others are good introductions, and others still are appropriate for any step in your education in these fields.

Our Queer Resource Library! Plus, Astrology, which is def #queerculture

Our Queer Resource Library! Plus, Astrology, which is def #queerculture

We are always seeking to expand and grow our library, so if you have any recommendations for additions or if you have questions that aren’t quite answered by what we have on our shelves, come talk to one of us or send us a message and we will seek out the appropriate resources to add to our curation. We are also proud supporters of the Muncie Public Library and are confident the resource librarians could assist you locally as well! If you need even more resources and additional support, check out the folx at Muncie OUTreach and join in the community while also considering volunteering for and/or donating to their organization!

If you have chocolate or baking questions, we have a few detailed books and a passionate chocolatier to talk with on these topics! Just make sure you’ve set aside enough time to have her wax on and on about all things chocolate and sociology and politics and economics and environment and… ahem.

But wait, there’s more! We also have a Little Free Library for you to donate and borrow as you please!

A Little Free Library, donated to us by Muncie By5

A Little Free Library, donated to us by Muncie By5

Commitment to Community and Education

Cheri and I and our entire staff are fully dedicated to helping you learn and grow and enjoy your experience at Queer Chocolatier! Please don’t hesitate to ask because your efforts to learn and grow will build a stronger community locally and beyond!

As of today, here is our list of resources on our library shelves:

  • Transgender History, by Susan Striker (2 copies)

  • The Truth Will Set You Free, But First It WIll Piss You Off!, by Gloria Steinem

  • Gender Outlaw, by Kate Bornstein

  • Beautiful Music for Ugly Children, by Kirstin Cronn-Mills

  • Written on the Body, by Jeanette Winterson

  • Fingersmith, by Sarah Waters

  • Angels in America, by Tony Kushner

  • Gracefully Grayson, by Ami Polonsky

  • The Art of Being Normal, by Lisa Williamson

  • Mrs. Dalloway, by Virginia Wolfe

  • Superstars, by Dell Richards

  • Freak Boy, by Kristin Elizabeth Clark

  • Aimee & Jaguar, by Erica Fischer

  • Female Masculinity, by Judith Habersham

  • Gaga Feminism, by J. Jack Halberstam

  • Persistence: All Ways Butch and Femme, edited by Coyote & Sharman

  • Fun Home, by Alison Bechdel

  • Gender Trouble, by Judith Butler

  • Beyond Magenta: Transgender Teens Speak Out, by Susan Kuklin

  • Wisdom of Unicorns, Joules Taylor

  • Odd Girls and Twilight Lovers, by Lillian Federman

  • Eleanor Roosevelt: volume 2, by Blanche Wiesen-Cook

  • The Trouble With Normal, by Michael Warner

  • The Stovepipe, by Bonnie Virag

  • Making History, Eric Marcus

  • Queer Street, James McCourt

  • I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, by Maya Angelou

  • The World and Other Places, Jeanette Winterson

  • Velvet, by Temple West

  • Feminism is Queer, by Mimi Marinucci

  • Looking Queer, edited by Dawn Atkins

  • I Never Called It Rape, by Robin Warshaw

  • Coming Home to America, by Torie Osborn

  • I Am J, by Cris Beam

  • Queer Theory: An Introduction, by Annamarie Jagose

  • The Slow Miracle of Transformation, by Mary Lou Wallner

  • The Lesbian and Gay Parenting Handbook, by April Martin

  • Stitches, by David Small

  • Women Who Run With the Wolves, by Clarissa Pinkola Estés

  • The Lesbian Almanac, edited by the National Museum & Archive of Lesbian and Gay History

  • Making Sex, by Thomas Laqueur

We Know "Why" Sober LGBTQ+ Spaces Are Needed. How Do We Create Them?

We Know "Why" Sober LGBTQ+ Spaces Are Needed. How Do We Create Them?

Cheri and I had no intention of opening a chocolate shop – at first. We wanted to start small: a food truck maybe, or an online store to sell my high-end chocolate truffles after 10 years of recipe tinkering and testing. Cheri was entrepreneurially driven; I’m inspired to be a maker and chocolatier full time. We found a perfect spot for a small chocolate shop near the local university and decided to jump in. Read more about our beginning story.

LGBTQ+ cafes have also long been a large part of our history, of course, but they’ve also often been harder to sustain than nightlife venues, especially considering how much alcohol brands spend on courting the valuable pink dollar.
— HTTPS://WWW.THEM.US/STORY/SOBER-QUEER-SPACES

Prior to our shop opening, locally, Mark III Taproom was the only place that offered a space for the LGBTQ+ community. As Indiana’s oldest gay bar, they work hard to foster an atmosphere of acceptance. But the age restriction (21+) keeps younger queer and trans folx from interacting with elders in our community. LGBTQ+ individuals are also more likely to deal with substance abuse than their non-LGBTQ+ counterparts, according to the National Institute on Drug Abuse.

We wanted to build a shop that was highly visible, community-driven, intentionally sober, inclusive, educationally-focused, and in solidarity with marginalized folks. Read the nine ways that we cultivate and work hard to maintain a safe+sober queer space.

1. Family Wall

Cheri posing in front of our Family Wall, November 2019.

Cheri posing in front of our Family Wall, November 2019.

Our Family Wall in the Chocolate House is slowly becoming covered with a curated collection of framed photos of queer and/or trans folx, both locally and historically. Being able to connect visually with other queer and trans individuals, couples or throuples, siblings, parents/offspring builds solidarity and provides a sense of comfort especially as the photos cut across the decades. Even for those who are not yet up on the wall themselves, simply seeing this collection reduces isolation. Considering how our community often has struggles or conflicts with family members they are related to by blood only reinforces the need for people to have a strong support network, or what can be called a chosen family.

 

2. Intentionally Sober Nights

Prior to our opening, locally, the only place that was a space for LGBTQ+ community was a gay bar. The age restriction keeps younger queer and trans folx from interacting with elders in our community. But recently, we began having “Gayyyme Nights” that are intentionally sober and attended by people of all ages, including those who are either underage and/or purposefully avoiding alcohol. Hearing them express a deep appreciation for events that are not centering alcohol is indicative of the need for such environments within our community.

 

3. Nametags

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A barista friend shared how they were constantly misgendered by customers. We wanted to avoid misgendering as well as engage in conversation about pronouns. We approached a local, small company to create our name badges. Our nametags include the names our employees wish to be addressed by as well as their pronouns and get noticed every day by customers who are impressed that this small gesture is a part of our business.

 

4. Fundraising for GC surgery, community causes

A portion of the clothing we collected for the Second Annual Gender Affirming Clothing Takeaway by ECI Trans Alliance.

A portion of the clothing we collected for the Second Annual Gender Affirming Clothing Takeaway by ECI Trans Alliance.

We uplift our community through our Gender Affirming Clothing Takeaway as a part of the East Central Indiana (ECI) Trans Alliance and have informally connected individuals for short-term housing. Various individuals and organizations fundraise throughout the year and we do our best as a business to partner, contribute, or signal boost these requests. To date, we have held events to contribute percentage of proceeds to Planned Parenthood, gender confirmation surgeries (GCS) for individuals in the community, and student conference fees coverage.

  

5. Pay employees above minimum wage

We pay employees above minimum wage while also giving them the full amount of tips earned. We communicate regularly and often and allow for employees to take mental health days without punishment. In turn, our employees give us their very best and they are some of our biggest supporters in terms of word of mouth promotion.

 

6. Allow Employees ownership of skill sets to utilize and showcase in the shop

We have artists who illustrate and take photographs. We have LGBTQ+ advocates who moderate panel discussions. We have social media influencers who weave our story in with their own. We have education majors who develop events that have a “curriculum” and writers and editors bring some of their projects to display on our bookshelves. We craft job experiences for them that allow for their resume to be filled with meaningful opportunities to grow in the field they are aiming to join upon graduation. Most recently, our employee Sydney Teare created the featured illustration for Cheri’s podcast creation, 1985 The Podcast.

 

7. Education – queer library

An important part of creating a safe space is including resources to allow for a person to grow and learn. We have an extensive, evolving, and growing library of queer and gender literature that allows for an exploration for anyone who has questions or interest in these subjects. For folx who are discovering more about what pronouns fit them to parents who are learning how to engage a child who has come out and to those who are already out but want to connect to more of our history or past research, we have a range of books that can address those topics.

 

8. Education – chocolate tastings for entire community

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Making high-quality food accessible to all is a goal we have had from the start of our business. One part of this is through our guided chocolate tasting events that we have been hosting for two years on a monthly basis. We invite people to attend and taste chocolate while using note cards to jot down their perceptions and engage one another in a light-hearted but genuine way.

 

9. Solidarity with vegans

Everyday we have someone come into the shop to ask us which one of the chocolate offerings is vegan. Surprise! They all are! And you wouldn’t even know the difference as no one misses the dairy. After a friend asked me to try to make a dairy-free truffle that she could enjoy, I redesigned all of my truffle recipes to be vegan in order for her and others to enjoy each of my flavors rather than a subset of offerings. As a result, we are able to delight vegans with our delicious truffles and have had generous reviews by those who attended Indy VegFest or have ordered from us online.

Read more pieces by Cheri at her newly launched website: The Traveling Professor.

A Chocolate-Covered Caveat Emptor: Nestlé Sued Over Fake White Chocolate

Caveat Emptor: Know Your Chocolate

According to Newsweek, a class-action lawsuit has recently been filed by bakers against Nestlé over their product labeled “Premier White Morsels.” The reason for the suit? Nestlé implicitly markets the Morsels as white chocolate, despite not containing the minimum required amount of cocoa butter to be consider as white chocolate by the Food & Drug Administration.

For a product to be considered white chocolate by the FDA, the product must have a minimum of 20% cocoa butter.

However, the aforementioned lawsuit alleges that the Morsels product is located on the shelves of stores next to products that do contain chocolate and leads reasonable consumers to believe that the Morsels also have cocoa butter which they do not. Hydrogenated oils are used instead and behave very differently in the baking process. They also have the additional benefit to Nestlé in being much cheaper to use.

Chocolates El Rey, a Venezuelan chocolate company, is the chocolate used at Queer Chocolatier. The white chocolate at the top of the image, Icoa, contains 34% cocoa butter and is an award-winning white chocolate, winning the Best White Chocolate in …

Chocolates El Rey, a Venezuelan chocolate company, is the chocolate used at Queer Chocolatier. The white chocolate at the top of the image, Icoa, contains 34% cocoa butter and is an award-winning white chocolate, winning the Best White Chocolate in the world in 2012-2017.

Guided Chocolate Tasting Events = Chocolate Education

As a sociologist-turned-chocolatier, I am obsessed with sharing information about chocolate so that we can all learn as much as we can about our beloved treat. When customers come in throughout the day, on any given day, I hope that they take away something new that they learned while they sip or nibble our offerings.

But the education dial gets turned up to 11 during our Guided Chocolate Tasting Events!

We talk about how chocolate is made, where it comes from, who is involved with the process, how various chocolate multinational companies’ chocolate is vastly different from companies such as Chocolates El Rey, and we have a fun time tasting chocolate throughout the event!

One thing we often discuss is white chocolate and it is often the conversation topic that splits a room into mortal enemies! Heated debates occur when discussing the virtues (or evils) of white chocolate, but I will interrupt the conversation to reveal that what most people encounter throughout their lives thinking is white chocolate is frequently something much like Nestlé’s “Premier White Morsels.”

Which is to say, not white chocolate!

Queer Chocolatier is on the case, gang!

Queer Chocolatier is on the case, gang!

Quality White Chocolate

High quality white chocolate will make all the difference in your baking and eating. Find a white chocolate that contains good quality cocoa butter and less additional ingredients that are meant to mask the flavor of lower quality oils that are added to extend cocoa butter. Icoa, the white chocolate we use from Chocolates El Rey, contains 34% cocoa butter and has no additives. Milk solids, sugar, vanilla extract, and soy lecithin along with the cocoa butter are the only ingredients that make up the formula and the cocoa butter is not deodorized, leaving a rich, ivory color that isn’t bleached white. Even folx who are skeptical of white chocolate will confess having their perspectives broadened by tasting Icoa!

Stop by Queer Chocolatier to taste a piece of Icoa white chocolate and sign up for our next Guided Chocolate Tasting Event in October! And mark your calendars for December for when we launch our White Chocolate Peppermint Truffle for the Winter Seasonal flavor!

Chocolate House

Hi, yes, I'm still here (and queer)!

Happy Summer, y’all!

I’m definitely still here (and queer) and we are working hard at the Chocolate House this summer to ramp up for the school year to start and to welcome cooler weather so that we can start shipping chocolates again!

We were also really lucky to eat these donuts from Holy Donut in Portland, ME!

We were also really lucky to eat these donuts from Holy Donut in Portland, ME!

We had a blast at Indy Pride, and we had bittersweet emotions over watching our Class of 2019 graduates fly off into their futures. Summer has brought us many things to process as a new business and we are taking advantage of the season. Cheri and I were able to have a summer getaway over the July 4 holiday to visit family in Maine and Ohio while fully entrusting the Chocolate House to our team and never felt so lucky to realize the talent shown and trust earned by the team.

We will be sharing lots of cool things coming up (such as our progress on bean-to-bar chocolatemaking!) and the place to catch our updates will be our newsletter to be re-launched in August as well as our newly-organized blog!

Be sure to visit us this summer to beat the heat, taste our new products, and grab some QC swag (printed locally in Muncie by Tribune Showprint!) Also, in August, we will have Guided Chocolate Tasting Events for your enjoyment!

Next month marks our two year anniversary as a business! Yes, we’re still here. And the only place to go from here is up! Probably much like the temperature…